(English) Dreams and Conscience

Dreams and Conscience
(By LadyAxR)

Miro at the front, single I see the great ocean, way a little so that something within my this saying itself that it walks, that of a step, but I cannot, so that I have watched the ground and before my there is a great one drained, a precipice, if way that I am going to fall, and I do not want, although that voice does not let repeat to me, it walks, it walks without fear, fact my Vista to back and there is nothing, no single I see a new emptiness, I want to watch from new the ocean but something stops, I am seeing to me arrive at Renee, walks slowly, single smiles to me. I feel as somebody takes my hand and throws of my, who is… manage not to see, but am not falling towards rocks….¨
- Mother, mother, wake up. My eyes were opened and I saw before me my daughter. - You are well? , calm single it has been a nightmare. It was sweating, I get up myself in my bed, water volume a little of my small table of night. - That you were dreaming that you have shouted? -. The glance of my daughter era of scare
- It has not, affluent, single memory that it falls to me of some place, is not pardoned if I have scared to you, what time is it?
- They are the 7 in the morning
- And that beams even in house? , you are going to arrive behind schedule at….
- If already, they have called to delay to me to the appointment one hour behind schedule to me but, so I even have time to have breakfast with you, that you say to me?
- Clear daughter, we go I invite to you to take a good coffee
- Perfect, it dates haste, I outside wait for to you while in the car
- Prudent Dea Dai, I do not take. My daughter I leave my dormitory while I put in the bath to shower to me quickly
While it fixed to me, it tries to remember the dream well, never had dreamed about Renee, who strange, and that serious that person who I throw to me towards the bottom? , and the worse thing of everything was that so ugly sensation that I had of solitude, of emptiness, huy… never had felt to me thus. In aim as it said somebody once, The dreams, dreams are. I did not want to think but, after painting, it lowers the stairs to me, I went out and I saw to my daughter in my car. I smiled to him, was crazy if it thought that it would let it lead it, I requested to him that it left the place of the conductor and who was put to the other side. After a good one for char it and a rich coffee, it leaves it in its office of work and marches from return to house. It had to put to me in my study to work, towards much that did not write anything, nor a word, it did not feel to me inspired and it had to do it, so that 6 songs for my concert had requested me that it gave to end of month.
It gave returns by my study, it walked without thinking, did not leave ideas, I saw a photo me of my children hung in a frame in the wall, as it surprised them, as soon as they had gone away with its father and it already needed them. When it has been divorcing me of Rob, for a year, we decided that the small ones would be six months with him in New Zealand and six months with me in Los Angeles, that is where at the present time resided by work questions, although the last year but of once travels to my country of origin, I could not have them as much time far from my.
Thanks to God, my separation was neither very traumatic nor problematic, both we realized that we did not feel that love of the beginning of our relation and in mutual agreement we decided that best serious the divorce. The boys like we at the outset I consist to understand the new situation to them but adapted the best thing than they could. Again I returned to walk, gave returns, I seated in the ground with paper and pen, but nothing left nothing to me, nor a single word arose from my head. My telephone began to sound, leaves the answering machine was responsible for me.
¨No we want contestarte, is joke, we called to you as soon as we arrive at casa¨
- It shines, I am I, I finish arriving from the airport, to see if we can see us in….-. It was its voice, it cheers me to listen to it after there was been outside three weeks, desired to see to me my friend, raises to me running and I was in looks for of the telephone, without wanting I encountered over the small table where there was a lamp which callus and she was broken in pieces and I received a strong blow in my right foot
- Damn Joder… is….
- Hey friend… that happens? , perhaps you have been badly a day? -. I did not think that it had listened to me
- No. I smiled. - It is that I finish of… in aim is not nothing, like these? , as it were the work?
- Whichever question… jajaja-. I smiled like, I liked she to listen to it thus, happy, imagine his beautiful smile, watch to me in a mirror that tapeworm hung in front of my, my eyes shone of emotion of being able to see it, felt to me happy, before did not remember to have had that sensation. - It has goes jaja … hello Luce again that so these?
- That graceful that you are eh… as you like to play Ren very well jaja… Hello and your friend?
- Then very cansadita by the trip but well, extrañándote much….
- That pretty friend, I also am strange to you much to you, when we see ourselves? , I have things that contarte and…
- I also friend….I am going to sleep awhile, we see ourselves to eat?
- Bond, perfect, where?
- I happen to you to gather and soon already we decided is worth?
- Ren, as you want, I wait for you well then to the 1:30 of noon
- Ok, we see ourselves, bye
I hung the telephone and I went to previously cure the caused wound to me of the blow, thought about her, her glance, its face, in its smile, in as towards laughing to me and we amused meetings, it wished that that never changed, was my better friend and wanted that thus it continued being. When it was with Rob, it was even but difficult my coexistence with her, so that to Rob never him callus or, but from towards a year éramos inseparable, we went to all the together places, with children and without them, to have supper, to eat at night, to amuse themselves, if, we passed it very or together.
When three weeks back she said to me that one was going away to roll outside the city I became sad, but good she accepts it, its work is important for her, and it deserves much success, being a great advance in her race. Now it had returned, and it died of desire to see it again to me. The rare thing was that it had not called to me so that it go to gather it as in other occasions it had done it, in aim already would ask to him so that in the food.
I again returned to see if it were able to write something, I seated in my armchair and without remedying my eyes they were closed….
It saw a great forest before my, with many great pines and leafy, it walked by a dirt road, felt fear, my body shook without knowing so that, but soon I realized, before my advanced a great furious bear, venia in my direction, I began to run desperate and I rose like I could to a pine that I found to my step, it climbs and it climbs until being far from the bear that put itself underneath my teaching its teeth to me wanting to me to bite. To my side in the branch I saw Renee, I smiled, in silence, single it watched to me and it smiled, soon it notices as somebody pushed from back and I directly saw my fall to me to fauces of the hungry bear that hoped down to bite to me
I woke up falling to the ground of the armchair where it was, God, that so ugly dreams it was having lately, did not understand its meaning, was going to try to find out them, was peculiar either that Renee had returned to leave, like in at night previous one, has was again smiling in silence… so that.
Listen that they touched to the door, I saw my clock, could not believe had slept it all the morning were 1:25, had of being Renee, my heart gave I jump of joy and lowers running to open to him, although she was not ready, that would delay the food. When opening I saw there, before me, smiled openly, its glance denoted happiness and mine in spite of not seeing it to me in a mirror probably it was equal so that my heart therefore felt completely happy. It throws to me towards her embracing it as never before it had done it, was what it was born to me, was what wished to do at that moment.
- Go, if I arrive that is to say that this is your reaction, had gone to me before the city
- Jajaja… I have missed to you friend, you do not know when I have been strange to you
- I also to you It shines. It said to me more tightening its arms to me. - But it does just a little bit of cold, you let to me pass?
- Sure sure it pardons, see happens. Taking it from the hand between inside closing the door. - Listening I am not ready as you can see, I raise fast and I change, while sírvete to me what you want in the kitchen is worth?
- Well and that caused that you were not ready? -. While it raised the stairs answer without thinking to him
- I was dreaming about you
Arrive until my room, I got dressed but fast that I could and while it made up to me I thought about I complete it that I said… to him I was dreaming about you? ….it had to explain, it had sounded something to him well badly, it did not want that she thought that…. that Shines? ….my inner voice I ask myself. I do not answer, listen as she raised to me by the stairs and calling to my door I took step to him to enter, I continued painting the eyes to me when I saw reflected in my crystal supported with a coffee between its hands.
- You have said to me before you dreamed with me or is what I believed to listen? -. It smiled to me, with its glance itched that towards laughing to me, already it knew that glance smiling
- It is not what you think eh jaja….it is that lately I have dreamed rare things and your you appear in them
- Oh… and can be known that I do in your dreams?
- The truth not much jaja… -. My hand began to me to shake could not paint to me well, so that? , before with her never it had felt to me thus so nervous
- Go that it hurts that does not do much, your nevertheless in mine if beams much
- Single you watch to me, you smile to me, you remain shut up in silence and… it hopes… you have dreamed with me? -. Let paint the eyes to me and it watches it front, to me it is hit with that confession, never before me had said it
- If. Turn and I leave, I followed it, she I intuit before I did the question to him, knew me very well. - And you do not ask you to me will not count it, so she finishes of pintarte that already we arrived behind schedule at the restaurant
- This good, then already you chose the place where to eat?
- If, it comes It shines that we arrived behind schedule please
- Ok, ok
It even followed hit reason why there was saying, it had to remove to him the information to me, as it were going it to even do, but really was not wanted to know that it had dreamed with me. Way to the restaurant we spoke animatedly of its stay while the film rolled .
We arrived at the place selected by her, was a beautiful hotel in the middle of great mountains, floods of a hermosura nature. It did not know that place, she I confirm myself that he was just open and who they had recommended it.
- You bring to a hotel friend? ….jajaja… I do not have to be scared truth?
- You would not have so that It shines… -. It smiled without separating its Vista to me from the highway
- Good… jajaja….not the intentions that you have and… -. I liked to play with her. - You will not be thinking about abusing my or something thus truth?
- It would never do something to you that your you did not want. No longer it laughed, its glance became serious
- It pardons Ren… I… -. I explode in outbursts of laughter
- Woman but that stupid you are… always I am left with you eh-. Its laughter followed and I infect myself. - The restaurant of this hotel is best already sides, it is not going to you to defraud, and have a precious terrace that sees all the nature, it is going to you to enchant
After one hour, it was counted all her stay to me and his new project of series, of his children and everything what in that weeks it had happened in his life, I to the equal one told him that they had invited to me to sing in a program and that my concerts went well, that was strange to my children, already in desserts, put myself serious, had to say something to me, nonwise like.
- We go friend, never you have hidden nothing to me, that happens to you?
- He is that… not like decirte this
- The one that? , we go, that you must say something to me, you take all the food treating to do it, cuéntamelo
- Well, you know that I want to you, you are my better friend Shines, and I believe that your you must of being first in saberlo-. It said to me breathing deep
- Knowledge that? , by God Ren, these scaring, tell me to me already…, kill the suspense to me
- I am enamored Shines. My eyes cuatros were had left, someday does not hope that it said that to me, wise that tapeworm to me that to happen, that somebody although she said to me that it had ended the men because malísima with its ex- ones had a experience, who not yet surpassed totally. - You do not say to anything friend to me?
- Good… mmmm… thought that you had said to me that not yet you recovered of your ex- ones….Renee, these safe of which these saying to me? …… I do not think that even she is soon stops….
- It shines, I cannot be safe in fullness, that does not exist in the land of the love, but I am very to taste with this person, it has helped me much and in these three weeks it has to me…
- Three weeks? ….these telling me that in three weeks you feel enamored? … Ren please
- Amiga, seems as if it bothered to you that outside happy, I thought that… hoped that you were glad for me. Its face I watch the plate of its dessert, was sad
- You are right, perdóname Ren, I feel it, is that I do not want that they return to you to hurt, single desire for you happiness, am glad for you friend. Stretch my arm to reach its hand, it caresses it and to feel its contact I make bristle the skin to me. She I elevate its face and their eyes were on the verge of loosen two tears. - Listening, did not try to react thus, I feel it, is that….
- One is brilliant, the calm thing does not go anything. So gentile it always excused when she removed my character to me but explosive, that luck tapeworm the man who had it, hurts that I was not so. But that there are this Lucy? , I ask my inner voice, this question if I responded it, in that place, then it had given account to me of something, it felt jealousy
- And well handsome? , you do not cry and cuéntame everything, that is he? , some companion of profession? -. Remove my better false smile so that she did not wish to know nothing of that person, but it was happy had to respect it
- It is not absolutely thus Shines. Retirement tears and I watch myself of in front. - Even I must decirte something more. I am in silence, hopes that it spoke while it did not leave of mirarla-. - He is something that I hope does not disappoint to you, to neither you move away me of your life for that reason, or has goes to you, I am not going away to walk with but roundups. It shines, she is a girl, it is….good already you know that when going to me to work it go takes to Iris and… and the producer put an assistant to me and a person so that took care of my daughter, is she Shines, she has given me what in long time nobody has given me
It did not leave my astonishment, to me is hit totally, if, in the press many things had commented, but we ourself many afternoons we ed ***reflx mng ourselves on that type of information. Even when we made conventions we played with the public and we amused ourselves, but never never I thought that Renee felt that by… a woman? , she could not believe it. And so that I am strange to you? your these feeling, said my inner voice to me.
- Cállate-. It shouts, did not want to him to listen to it at those moments, but I escape aloud
- It shines, I feel it but it is thus and I create you would have to lower the voice are watching to us
- I feel Ren, was not to you… I mean that… it gives equal… waiter? -. Indicate with my hand so that it came, at those moments needed to have a drink to me. - Can bring a vodka to me with lemon please?
- Immediately lady. It responded very courteous
- Quieres something Renee? -. It watches it at the eyes
- If, tráigame, the same better no, tráigame güisqui with cocaine tail by favor. The waiter I leave
We remained both in silence, after that confession, I I followed hit, it could not articulate word, it was rare in her but also it happened to him the same, was shut up. It watched it and not yet it assimilated what it had to me counted. The waiter I arrive with the glasses, it takes a good one him I suck it breathes deep and it speaks again.
- Well Renee, single I wish to know a thing… you are happy next to her? -. She I watch myself
- If Lucy, if I am it, she wants much to Iris and my daughter to her, is a woman…
- I do not talk about to the relation between your daughter and she, I am speaking of you, she you makes happy. Renee… -. I continued speaking after another drink. - Sabes to which you are going away to face? , you are actress, you have life publishes, people…
- It does not concern people to me Shines, gives equal what thinks to me I publish, single I I want to be happy and with her I am it. To my the only thing that it matters to me is the one that thinks my family, friends and….
- And your Ren race? , you have worked very hard all your life to obtain what you have, you have fought and you are going it to throw by the hut
- I do not believe that it is as well as you say Shines, the people who want to me will want equal east to me with a woman sharing my life or no, in any case nor believe that they find out, I I am not very popular and the press does not follow to me daily. It tell me Lucy, since I have said you to my concerns the opinion to me of people that I want and your you are my better friend, that you think?
- Well, since there am single saying to you I wish happiness you, if she you makes happy, I I am happy also
- Thanks friend, you I thank for it of heart, you are somebody important one in my life, desire that you know it, is wonderful
While we finished to the glass she I am spoken on Gloria, that was its name, at the together moments that were past, in its laughter, in its humorous situations, reason why it told me was a great woman. Renee was touched single when remembering it, while its glance delighted happiness. She was sure that woman towards immensely happy and I within my began to feel the serpent of the jealousy, so that there was lost my better friend.
Already passed the four of afternoon, I take from return to house, I took leave of her and I saw leave. Between and I felt completely single, in that great house, without life, without my children, in solitude. I raised my dormitory and it throws to me in the bed and without knowing so that it cries very heartbrokenly, as much time that to me is slept.
¨No was nothing to my around, walked on the anything, not behind my, nor ahead, no my right left nor, nothing, but saw me my, turned in search of something, but it does not find anything, to the distant spot descries a door, I wanted to walk towards her, it walks and it walks and always it saw the door in that same situation, I stopped tired, suddenly the door it was opened and she appeared Renee, made a gesture me go towards her and I again began to walk, walked and never it arrived at the height of the door, I decided to run and either, it did not see as it moved away no matter how hard I tried to approach me her did not obtain it. Ren, shouts its name but she seemed not to listen to me single continued making her gesture so that she approached me her, but could not, could not arrive until ella¨.
So that you call to me if soon you move away of me. I opened to my eyes listening that phrase, it incorporates to me in my bed, it watches through the window it had grown dark, it watches my awakener and were the 7:30 of afternoon. It had slept everything afternoon, was something that I did not like to do so that now she would not stick eye at night. But as an afterthought I like that idea, was Saturday, would leave celebration by has. It raises to me, putting to me in the bath to shower to me and to fix to me, before beginning to do listens it that my daughter arrived at house.
- That so these affection? As it were to you the day today? -. It asked to him while it lowered the stairs and it saw leave it the keys of its car hung in the key ring of the wall
- Then the truth, I am exhausted mother not very well, I feel sad so that an important meeting me has denied it and to make matters worse now Silvia calls to me and she has said to me that she leaves me. Silvia is the fiancèe of my daughter, a good girl but with a not at all comprehensive family for the sexuality of his daughter
- Whatever I feel love. It approaches me her while both we seated in the sofa. - Listening you do not worry heart, it was ended up regreting as other times and it will return to you
- Mother, but I also am getting tired I do not want to be toy of anybody
- This good, you are right. The truth did not wish to put to me in the problems of my daughter, if it helped it with advice, but nothing else, since tapeworm by experience that the end badly stopped was I, and it already was adult. - Listening, was fixing to me and leaving celebration, that you say daughter to me, you come with me?
- The truth I am….
- We go small, sides that at least thus something you alleviate your pains, and the truth I also need to alleviate them
- So that it sucks, that has happened to you to you? -. It did not wish to say to him to my daughter who felt to me jealous so that Renee had found a love
- Nothing calm already everything happened, ah you know, Ren has returned to the city
- In serious? , when?
- Today, we have been eating and….
- You could have call to me mother, had enchanted to see it to me, and like this?
- Well, very contented. Be in silence, I did not know if to say to him of their confession or simply to hope to that elle told my daughter, both had complicity since Daisy was a young
- We could go to have supper with her and thus I see it that….
- Better morning you go your a its house daughter, now desire to leave to have a drink by has
- This good, where you want to go? -. It watches it while it embraced it
- Llévame to some place where your soles to go
- Mother, the places to which I go are… good are… local homosexuals
- Bond, well, does not matter, today I want to me to spend a good night of celebration, in addition daughter your you know that I have open mind
- Mother, these good? , he is something rare in you, your never you have wanted…
- Good then now if, but that it is not a discreet place I do not want either…
- If already, I know a bar very well that has very insolent reserving which your you see the people of the bar but they to you no, this very guay, will call to reserve it, now, will leave expensive eh just a little bit
- It does not matter, you do the reserve, I am going away to dress. I rose my room to fix itself.
One hour and average later we left meetings in the car Daisy it did not desire to me to lead and it was arranged to drink, needed to forget to me of which Ren had to me counted, so that? , she was my friend had to be happy for that reason, but no, within my it was not it, it felt horrible jealousy. We arrived at the place and we entered by the back door in case somebody recognized to me, the place was ample was a great room, with a sofa, a table in center, that was convertible in one of letter game. There was a great crystal and if since there were counted my daughter to me I saw the people of the bar dancing and happy but they to my no.
My daughter salio to call to a waiter, we requested a bottle of vodka with its respective accessories, while Serbian him a glass to my daughter asks since it had known that place, she to him smiled openly, a friend was saying to him, a friend who was well-known in the world of the spectacle and that like I, did not want that the press bothered to him, asks, wanted to him to know that well-known friend was lesbian like my daughter, I did not loosen article, really have left without knowledge that is. Music in our room began to sound, was the same music of the track of the bar, although we had option to change we did not want it, we outside wanted although single through crystal to be but near people.
After three glasses my daughter and I danced and laughed very to taste, in one of our shutdowns to serve a glass to us but, Daisy I call my attention of which she watched the crystal, could not believe the one that my eyes saw, Renee was in the bar. My daughter without saying to nothing salio in his looks for, I wanted it to retain, did not want that she found out that there I was. Little minutes later I saw as it greeted Daisy to beams of the crystal, they were kissed and they embraced, its faces were glad. Definitively Daisy wanted much to Ren and that affection was reciprocal, in but of an occasion I had to call to my friend to request aid to him towards my daughter when she was even a student of the secondary one.
Fixed Ren its Vista to the crystal, scares to me and although it could not see me I felt its glance in my, was clear that my daughter already had said to him that she has, I was shamed enormously, I hid backwards throwing to me, that idiot I thought, if she cannot see me. Again I left before the crystal, and no longer they were, looks for them between people did not see them, when it listens to the voice of my daughter.
- Is not incredible breast, that we have been here? -. I turn myself, watching my daughter, to her side Renee, and saw that there was a girl but
- I cannot think what they see my eyes, Shines, like your this way? -. Renee me hug smiling. - I never thought verte never about a place thus
- If jaja already time, is that I wanted something different this night. Watch the young person
- Oh, hopes, that good of this encounter, watches I present/display to you, she is Gloria. It was the one that had robbed me her love, but that said my mind? Or had spoken my heart?
- Enchanted Gloria. She was a young, handsome woman, brown hair, eyes black color, of the stature of Renee, and its body was thin. - It is a pleasure, already has spoken a little Ren to me of….
- Of which mother? -. I ask my daughter
- Good that is something that single Renee can tell eh- you. I smiled to him
It invites them to remain in the reserved one, single acceded before a glass, Gloria preferred to be down with people and to Renee it did not matter to him absolutely, him towards case in everything what she said. Gloria seemed that the brain had absorbed him. They left down and from above I saw them dance, enjoy, laugh, embrace yourselves. So that she was locked up I and they freely enjoyed, she wanted to live thus, she frees, enjoying a good night, without fearing that they recognized to me. My daughter me did not say it but she wished to be down also, so I proposed to him that she went away, after little insisting I leave and I remain sitting, single, having a drink while she continued seeing desfrutar to the people of the bar, I requested love songs, romantic ballads. Five minutes later somebody I call to the door, raises to open to me.
- I already forget to you I base of….-. Before my it was Renee-. - It pardons I thought that it was my daughter has left its drink here
- I am, I can happen?
- Sure and Gloria? -. Watch to see if venia behind her
- Not this to been left down
- And your so that these here? -. It asks to him while it closed the door. - You would not amuse yourself down but? , I see that you very well these happening
- If, it better step, but and your? So that these Shine here? , so that you do not come with us?
- It does not desire to me. It said to him while it seated to me next to the table. - They see siéntate, you do not want to take something?
- If, a glass walks sírveme. It raises to me and I served its glass to him, she I rise behind my, took a walk by the room. - Therefore you like to live Shines, locked up between four walls, without nobody to your around?
- Good friend, is a place, special, your you know that when I go to some….
- So that you have come here Shines? -. I do not let myself finish the phrase, watches it front, the alcohol began to make an impression on my, it felt to me euphoric, it warms up and it wishes to kiss its lips, its clothes did not help me either to calm to me, enchanted to see it to me with its cattle tenders fit positions
- Single it wanted to know the ambient friend, it had never come and….
- , I never thought that you would come. I approach the crystal watching at the dance track while their backs were had left I. - And for serte sincere, not so that the change, you do not like that people watch to you and….
- However to you if, truth friend. It approaches me her, I put myself behind her, approaching my body. - Míralos, dances and plays, they are amused and that to you excites to you certain? , to you you like that watch to you, truth Renee? , is that? -. It whispers to him to the ear while with my left hand it put it in its waist
- No, It shines, no. Turn and I move away of me seating in the table. - I do not like that they watch to me, nor she excites to me, that is the difference between your and I She shines, I I want my freedom and your no, I want to be happy and your no
- There is please Ren, I have seen you since you arrived at the place is restregándote with that, becoming carantoñas, to…
- That has a Lucy name, is Gloria and me restregaba, single did not dance with the person of who I feel something by her and by the way I am not shamed of it, nor of her either
- Then I am glad for you friend. My voice was mocking. - Lárgate to continue enjoying “Gloria” -. Clarify its affluent name. - And déjame to my in peace
- But that demons passes Lucy to you? , so that you treat to me thus? , that I have done you so that you insult to me this way?
- Exist Renee, that you have made, exist in my life. It shouts to him
- Then if it bothered my presence as much to you so that you have held me all these years? -. It responded to me raising the voice. - There is sight, you know that? , we are going to leave it, already was this Gloria to me who….
- Always Gloria, always Gloria, since you have returned nothing else you speak of her, who passes Renee, you are its slave?
- No, Lucy, she does not treat to me thus, and to you that he bothers to you? , that I let there be it for you?
- Disculpa? ….hey you never have been me….
- No, Lucy, insurance that no. Its voice was sarcastic. - Please if until the press in a convention they asked it
- You see what this happening Renee? , never, never, never we had discussed and… and míranos now
- It will be so that your you want, so that you are always the one that you begin the discussions, so that you always want to take the reason and It does not shine, this time is not thus going to be. It approaches me her that she had risen in the direction of the exit door
- If Renee, will be better than you go away, walks she runs next to….-. I watch myself challenging. - Of your Gloria, it does not go account being who that you take much and thinks bad
- So that it was going to think Lucy badly? , and that has said to you that it went to me?
- I have seen you walk towards the door and….
- And? , now I cannot walk without you me DES permission?
- In any case it is better than you go away Renee already, is better for both, if it discussion will not become but great. I used another glass
- And your you would have to let drink, these drunkard
- Then it does not give the desire me me now, I am enough mayorcita for… -. I approach me and I am to clear the glass of my hand, that movement caused that the drink fell to me above. - Joder Renee, watches what you have done
- I feel Lucy, I feel….
- That you feel? , already déjame peacefully Ren, déjame single, to joder now… as I am going to thus leave everything stained….
- Quítate the shirt, I can wash to you in the washbasin and….-. If that thought I, to undress me her in front of
- These crazy person? , she vetoes already, I can make it single
- Well hazlo, I hope to you here, I am not going away to go until we finish this conversation
That room tapeworm a complete bath, between in, I closed the door and it clears the blouse to me that was everything stained of alcohol, the sujetador also, it tries to wash it and it clears in the blouse briefly the spot, I followed with the sujetador when I realized something, that obstructed had been and now that towards? , it was the wet clothes, as it left. Before putting it to me, I wanted to avoid it, calls to Renee in search of its aid, I did not obtain answer, single silence. I returned to shout its name and it does not find answer some. Probably one had gone away, I displease the idea to me of thus not seeing it , but better. I put the wet clothes, although I did not like so that my chests pronounced more to me and I opened the door.
- Thus it wanted verte….you have been all the night exciting to me, with your movements, your words, with your dressing, now you are going to me to fulfill. Renee I kiss my lips passionally, becoming I release the brakes so that I put myself to one hundred
It could not think what it was living, which was happening, it was kissing to me, felt it and I liked much, his warm lips had to me completely, his arms surrounded my neck, which began to kiss sticking me to the wall of the bath. I maintained in arms happening his legs to it around my waist, without letting kiss it, feeling his aroma that returned me crazy, his language playing with mine, in the middle of the passion takes it to the sofa that was in the room, slowly throws it in, putting my body on her, if to let prove his lips flavor to strawberry a taste that was the best one for my. I began to undo its shirt quickly, wished to have it undresses it before my, it wished that body with madness and it wanted to have it, wanted to give all my love him. Somebody I call to the door, that interruption gave back us to the reality. Scared I put again in the bath.
The voice of my daughter listens to a pair of minutes later, who did not worry that she would bring my jacket of the car, asentí him to me with if. I put myself the mirror in front of, watched my face, God! , but that had happened? , that had done? , that we had done. It was my better friend, she is my friend, and…. God! , it could not believe it, practically… us… both, the two we had yielded to….to a wild passion. But… Lucy you are not deceived, you know perfectly that not only it was passion, your heart it had felt something very special, it said the impertinent voice to me of my conscience.
I opened a little the door when my daughter said to me through her that already she has, removes my single arm and I obtained the jacket. Me I put it and breathing deep I left, and as my single surprise when before my was my daughter. It said to me that Renee and his friend had taken leave of marched her and, was logical, was to be expected, God mine it had been an error, a great error, now was lost completely all the confidence of Ren. Asked to him my daughter to march, she wanted we to have left ourselves, accept it, take a taxi and arrive at house. After showering to me and to put my pajamas to me, already put in bed, it sounded my moving body, me had arrived a message.
“It shines, we have something without finishing, I want to speak it, good night”
I did not know that to respond, nonwise that to say, that it wrote to him? , it felt to me so shamed by the situation, but to remember those moments I liked, enjoyed doing it.
“It walked by the great forest but that I had never seen, to my left tapeworm a great river, a river where she approaches to me and I saw that in the water beautiful fish of colors they jumped and they swam happy. Walk near the river, I liked the scent that gave off the water, arrives until an open one was a small lagoon that was before my, and near the border there was a wood cabin. It approaches to me by peculiar one of its windows, wanted to see that were the person who lived there, did not see anything single a beautiful hall with a table and wood chairs, approach me another window and were the main dormitory. A pair made the love in their bed that was in the center of the dormitory, the woman arrives enjoyed pleasing, did not manage to distinguish to the person of down, she turn their face backwards and was Renee, their face of joy made me sigh, retires my Vista did not want to less see it in that situation and with other than not outside I, but I returned to watch the curiosity killed to me, when she retirement a little my tears left the blow when seeing that the person who towards enjoying Renee was not other but who my own daughter.”
I woke up of a jump of my bed, the head it exploded to me of pain, it watches the awakener, were the 12 of noon, like me jodia to be those sleepy, nor I thought but about, the single one…. so that my daughter left in? That relation ..... goes, gives equal, had to alleviate the pain to me the undertow of the previous celebration…. God! , if, the previous night. Tapeworm no desire not to face me anybody in that day. Of my bath it takes hold the medicine kit and it takes two aspirins me with water, it lowers down and the aroma of the coffee woke up to me of blow, my daughter in the Serbian kitchen then his.
- Mother mine jaja… if that we are eh well?
- Graceful, you can give an affluent coffee me loaded daughter please?
- Clear that if, if it is that these customary not to drink and clear you went
- No longer me you remember daughter, and when she wants to return to drink, mátame please
- That you are going to make mother today?
- Not I have idea, as it is Sunday and with this undertow that I have then… I believe that I will return to raise me the bed after eating something, and we will already see in afternoon, I perhaps leave to some side
- I have thought to go to see the children of Renee, seems to you? -. I put myself tense
- Clear daughter, is no problem, as I say to you I am but that bad thus that stops my that I am going away to be left all the day here
- Good bond, because then I leave you. It gave a kiss me in the forehead. - You know that it is very good also for that you bring jaja commits an ice cream will do to you well, by experience
- Prudent dea Jaja… I will do case to you, good bye
- Good bye
I raised my room again after eating and to finish the coffee to me, falls down to me in my bed and to me it is slept again. When I returned to open to my eyes the sun entered by my window, the awakener watches were the 5 of afternoon, already felt to me better, my headache had disappeared. It showers to me and I put comfortable clothes, cattle tenders with a fit blouse, Went to my garden and the day was precious, with a radiating sun, I had desire to leave to take a walk. Already in the nonwise car to where to direct, I thought to me about a beautiful place, where Renee had taken to me to eat, she had to make much type of things, directs to me there.
Arrive, you park my car, you walk a little by the footpaths of around the restaurant, I saw that horses rented, I did it and already in his grupa walks near the river that the water ran with clarity, hopefully thus was my heart. Take a walk by one hour, to my return I realized of which my daughter had called to me, I gave back the call to him.
- Affection, that happens?
- Where these breast? , I have arrived at house stops….
- It is that already I feel far better, I came to take a walk to a place that Renee showed to me new, someday I will bring to you is very pretty, I believe that I am going away to be to have supper, we see ourselves soon in house
- It is worth this good, but….afternoons it is not worth?
- This good, good bye
I closed my telephone and I again put it in my purse, already had left the horse, the night done to me above, but before having supper I decided to throw a game of mini golf, liked that game. In front of my she was a family playing with its children, saw so happy, so well together the four, whom they envy heals gave me. I continued playing, when she arrives at hole ten, somebody my backs I am spoken.
- Lady, can hurry? , if you do not finish we will be here see you tomorrow
- I feel it is that it I have tried and not me twice….-. It said while it gave the return me for I discovered that she was Renee the one that spoke to me. - That beams here?
- Playing mini golf, this prohibited?
- Not….but….
- We must speak Lucy-. It said to me serious, I I remain frost, nonwise that to say, did not wish….already, it was not left me of another one, him tapeworm that to lie for the first time to my friend in my life
- Of which you want to speak friend?
- Perhaps of the happened thing last night
- Last night? , that step last night Ren?
- You take the hair Me? , these saying to me that you do not remember what step last night?
- There is friend, she was very drunk, it did not say my daughter to you who….
- If, already your daughter said to me, but…. you know a thing? , you do not know to lie Shines, I propose something to you? , you take two attempts to remove this hole, I give two opportunities you but, if you put the ball, I leave and it will never speak of the subject, but I in my try I put, you will have to respond it me to all question that does to you, dea prudent? , it tell me Shines, you dare to bet with me? -. She defied to me with his glance, so that to deceive to me they enchanted the challenges and the games to me, and tapeworm two shots and she one, would win safe
- This good friend, acceptance your challenge
I began, giving me she step then tapeworm the wood of golf in the hand, she seated in a banquito that was to the right to watch to me, put when feeling his glance nervous, but she had to concentrate could not lose, I thought to me single about the ball, I made my first shot, I do not enter, I cursed for my adentros. Again I made my shot, DES then of a minute of reflection, returned to fail.
- Damn is! , jolines… -. A beautiful smile watches coat, could not deceive to me, captivated to me
- It touches to me. I approach my, cooking the wood to me
- A little while Renee, and if your you do not put it either? , and if we were left tie?
- Then….you invite to have supper and we forgot everything to me. Thing smiled to me that made me also laugh to my
- Bond
- But you do not worry, I am not going to fail, in this ball goes my life, to see, you allow me? -. It did a gesture to me so that it did space to him
I occurred it, I analyze, I watch, remiro and after cincos minutes already it lists, it did its launching, thinking that it would fail but did not do it, it profit, single an outburst of laughter and I watch myself.
- I believe that there are lost friend
- If that seems. I continued watching the ball put in the hole
- I feel it, but….
- If calm, my debt will pay, I am word woman
- Well, then we begin by… -. It scares me to the knowledge that no longer had escape. - So that you take to me to have supper, please I am much hungry
- Clear jaja, if, we go
We were having supper, speaking of everything and nothing, but it did not refer anything to me previous at night, although it was evident that the questions in arriving would not take, and thus was, after the supper we left to take the dessert to the terrace that towards a great night, with a beautiful Full Moon and a starred sky wonderful. Seating both to a side of a table, I watch myself.
- So that you do not like the idea that Gloria entered my life?
- It is not that I did not like friend, is that…
- It shines, you must govern the norms of the game, gains it, you must answer everything and without titubeos sincerely
- Either, it is worth, this or, I believe that she is not the person for you
- So that?
- So that you deserve something better, it does not please me for you
- You have felt jealousy?
- If
- You have been strange to Me when there am been far?
- If, clear that if, you are my better friend
- You want to Me?
- By all means, that asks is that Renee? , clear that I want to you you are my better friend
- Recuerdas the one of last night? -. Wise person who would not take in arriving
- If
- You nothing else do not have to say?
- That but you want that it says to you?
- You do not answer to me with a question, you wished the one of last night?
- If. My glance callus to the ground, my cheeks were sonrojaron
- You regret the happened thing last night?
- No
- Then you mean that….good that….-. She began to titubear, now was she the one that tapeworm the low guard
- That passes Renee? Esperabas other answers?
- Then….it watches….this game to finished already, we are going to leave it dea prudent? , your you are right, is better than we forget the happened thing
- And if now I do not love friend, your you have wanted to begin, you cannot echarte back now, you must follow with the game
- But no longer desire Shines it. I rise in the direction of its car, tried to go away, now? , no, it was not going it to let march
- No, it hopes, of you do not go away here. It takes it from both arms that but that to take I gave it behind to him to a hug putting to me his with my mouth put in its right ear. - That same night you said to me in a message, “I want to finish it”, so that not it beams now?
- I did not say that to you Shines, I said “I want to speak it to you”
- Good your and I we know that it has he himself meaning, you want so much as I to finish what we began, you wish it truth? I gave that you wish Renee me, dímelo-. My hands caressed their arms tenderly
- It shines, people watches to us, I do not believe that we must be….
- With Gloria if it beams, and to my you say to me that people watch to us? , by which Renee?
- So that Gloria is not nothing in my Lucy- life. Turn putting itself in front of me. - So that Gloria is a friend nothing else, a person who takes care of to my daughter with affection and love is the niñera of Iris. I have left agape nonwise to that she talked about. - You understand Lucy to It? , single I told that history to see your reaction you, to know after all these years if you felt by my that love that I have had to hide and to suffer in silence
- But of which these speaking to me? -. I gave an one step back, moves away to me of her
- Of which you have listened, and not you I am going it to repeat but so that I am shamed of my same one, I thought that your you had responded to me thus, and never wanted hacerte damage, I have never dealed with…
- Cállate Renee, damn you are! …. cállate! … you have made me damage, you have made think me that it lost your friendship, you use when you want to me, you kiss to me and you say that if and as soon as no, never I thought that you would never do this Renee to me
- I have it deserved, if, I have deserved everything what…
- After all these years you do this to me, like Renee? , as it is possible? , it had trusted my life, you to you…
- Either, or. I shout myself desperate. - But I am enamored with you since I saw the first time you, I take all to these years amándote and am tired Lucy, very tired to hold that you love other people but who to my, that you leave me when your you want, and is worth, I feel it, but another thing was not happened to me nothing else that… hacerte to think that you could lose me to see your reaction. Later to request excuses to me turn and was wanted again to enter its car
- To where you think that you go? -. It turns it of a movement, would not let it march, serious mine
- Lucy I believe that it is better than goes to me, we must speak another day but calmed
- Calmed? , mírame Ren, I am calm, she does not pass anything so and as she does not pass anything that you are going to me to fulfill
- Cumplir? -. its face disturbed
- If, it watches. I indicate to our back. - That you see has precious?
- A hotel
- Then that, we go to a room and you fulfill to me. One you see I did a question here to you being, you remember it? , your you said to me that never you would take advantage of my of which I did not want to do truth. Then I want to do it and as reason why you have demonstrated to me last night your also, we go then
- Lucy please, this not this good, you have become crazy?
- Something, with so many lies and your false relation and many things but, because if friend me you have returned crazy, and I want to prove your body that has passion crazy person to me, I want hacerte already mine
- Then I do not wish it, that… you are going to me to violate or that?
- You do not touch me to it. I said to him, something that it responded to me with a slap. And it was good so that it reacts, did not understand anything of which there was saying to him, nor so that me it had returned that aggressive saying that type to him of obscene things and offending it, it could not think that I had said to him that she wanted to violate it, watches it in silence during seconds
- She is behind schedule Renee, I believe that we would have to call to house and to remain in the hotel to sleep here, each one in its room, and we must forget all the happened one tonight for always
- If, I believe that he is the best thing
It did not want nor to watch it to the face, shamed me of my same one by to me to have tolerated of that form, in reception we requested both rooms and everyone went to hers, nor I knew as he was hers, each one went in a different elevator. Between in my room, it removes from my purse my telephone and calls to my daughter to inform to him into where it was going to spend the night. It did not want to think, that night no, already had had enough. I lay down in the bed, after undressing to me completely since it had not brought pajamas, covering to me with savannahs. It dealed with I slept but it could not, it felt uncomfortable , it lets to me think, it gave returns, wanted to rest, when it was to point to obtain I felt it that somebody entered between my savannah, nor turns to me, I felt its aroma quickly.
- Leave the important question but for the end, you love to me? -. Its voice was sensual, a whisper, and no longer it did not want to follow hiding my feelings either
- If. It answers without giving me the return to him, I felt its arms to embrace my body tenderly, sweetly
Thus we remained, both sleepy, in calm, calm, in silence, a silence that reigned in all that dormitory of that hotel. The new dawn I call to us, even waking up embraced, its blond hair was seen clearer with the incoming sun by the window. Their green eyes were illuminated, clear, beautiful and its smile I delight.
- Good morning friend. I said to him smiling to him
- Good morning friend. It corresponded to my smile
- You have slept well? -. It caresses its face to him while it separated a tuft to him from hair
- Aha… I have been in the sky
- Thus? , escucharte goes because I am glad, to say that me makes happy
- If, I have slept with an angel, plenty of kindness, tenderness, pure love and that is something that never never I will be able to forget.

The end