(English) I Need Answers

I NEED ANSWERS
(By LadyAxR)

It could not think what it was happening to me, my first day and arrived behind schedule, in other occasions that had arrived behind schedule if it were by my fault because to me it was sleeping always until behind schedule making things, enchants the night and the relaxation to me that it provides to me. But now to the being my first day of work had raised to me early, but my car did not want to arrive. That same day would go to the mechanic, it was not possible that the previous day me they gave it and who already failed to me. Who would kill to me had fixed it, fixed? , better thought me they had left it equal.
My car was not I complete model, and so that my mother had not offered me aid to buy one new one, but could not remedy it enchanted my car to me, back buys it with ahorrillos towards two years, ford scord convertible target, putting to him and baptizing it that same day with the name “Cream ly”. It was of second hand and it was giving many problems me but it had taken him affection, my mother ed ***reflx mng itself of me by that situation and she advised one new one to me since that could carry problems to me and although I did not like, my mother was being right.
After several attempts and affectionate words “Cream ly” I start and it cheers to me for that reason. Thank heavens which nobody had in the highway they would think that she was crazy if they saw speak me to him to my car of that way. Arrive at the parking where already all the cars of executives and actors were parked, I had to park it in the end. Lower and I went to the office of the producer, arriving one hour from delay.
- Good day. I said timidly, was ashamed of my delay. The producer, a high man, something fat, I watch something I bother. - I feel to arrive Mr. Tapert behind schedule, that I do not have excuses but my car I stop myself to me that…
- Me DES but does not excuse O´Connor young lady, I hope that it does not become to repeat for… -. They opened the door of the office and I enter a man with amiable face
- Robert, calm, is his first day, you do not take it with her, hello. It offered its hand to me which accepts. - I am called Sam, welcome to the series, hope you feel to taste with us. I smiled to him, this head was but amiable who the previous one I thought
- Hello, thanks, will not become to repeat I make sure it
After talking awhile with both producers, it signs my new contract of work, and with an assistant they sent to me to know the rest distribution that already was working and rolling in several places. All they received to me with a smile and that I like, were as a great family and hoped to be accepted. I was surprised the knowledge that Lucy serious Lawless my companion. We had already worked, previously single a day, in another series of TV. This actress astonished to me, tapeworm precious eyes and its height was extraordinary and its unstoppable beauty, I do not surprise anything to me that she left chosen in the aid of beauty because she was it by outside, without counting the one of that she was graceful, smiling, inside joking and the world did not occur yet of super star being amiable.
Step a year and all we were happy for belonging to that series, to I publish had enchanted to him and to my me they had made new contract. Between all we had much complicity, to the degree of which some of us outside éramos cameras friends, sometimes we met and we made celebrations. Between Lucy and I a great friendship began and we had much chemistry, as they said to some friends ours, that was the success of the series. But all change for me the day that she taking a coffee in the cafeteria trusted something to me of her life that I am not myself pleasant.
- Renee, was buscándote, where you put? -. One seated my in front of
- Time, already recharging batteries with caffein. I smiled to him. - Quieres one?
- If
- With milk?
- By favor. It said to me taking the boat of the sugar. - I have contarte something friend
- It tell me, that happens?
- But that it remains here, is worth. Robert has requested to me to leave with him
I watched it and is agape, I felt in my heart a jab of jealousy, jealousy? , so that. I do not like that she said that to me, watches my coffee while she continued speaking to me of him, of which had already left several times like friends and who she thought that she began to feel something by him. Damn stupid, tapeworm luck the condemned of being able to have it close, to leave with her and….it did not want to think that it had touched it, that situation became ill to me. But she did not have to think thus, it was my friend and if he it towards happy had to respect it and to support it.
- I am glad for you friend. I said to him watching my coffee
- .pues by as goes. you say it, seems that it is not thus
- Not… if, if, in serious I am glad. I threw a false smile to him. - If he you makes happy, ahead, I will be happy with the person who you makes happy
- Thanks friend did not hope less of you, always you have supported to me in good and the bad ones, thanks for everything. Its coffee drank of I suck and giving its better smile me I leave to work. - We see ourselves the short while. It said giving it it the return to me
I remain quiets, without words but with many thoughts, rare, rare so that she began to feel something by her. Lucy always had supported to me in everything and in the work she helped me very many. And of a time to this part I did not like that no approached to him, or that joked saying to him the beautiful thing to him that it was. About my nights it thought about her, it felt to me ashamed when she joked with me and feeling the contact of a hand hers or a hug ignited to me excessively. It had to forget to me her, and of those feelings, it had to be with her so that she was my friend.
That day step, and following and many more. A month later it before me was happy and I escaped every time that he approached us and he separated to us. It did not want to see it smile, so that it did not wish that outside happy, but not with him, it wanted that he was with me.
If Robert noticed itself of my situation but it was not begun to request extra things to me in the work or to annul to me in questions that I proposed. But I followed mine, she did not want to be an impediment and nothing else she dedicated to me to fulfill my work already and.
I arrive a new companion from distribution, a wonderful, wonderful woman and already with its race consolidated like actress, its Kathryn name, although it requested that we called Katy. She had to cause that his personage made doubt mine and move away to me of Xena. That day the work was hard and was tired. It marches express did not want to find me with Lucy nor Robert to me, although she had requested to speak to me of questions, did not want to see it, was beginning to me to hurt too much its presence.
I left and I start, taking the highway in the direction of my house, single it thought about arriving and putting to me in the bathtub to relax to me. Again “Cream ly” returned to fail to me not absolutely, good, since one rolls thorn and I left the way after a maneuver. Lower of my car and you watch the happened thing, it could not believe it, it is that all it passed to my, it now took me all to that week with many problems and this, I began to think that a curse had thrown me. The telephone did not have battery, this seemed surrealista. Remove the spare wheel, did not know as to put it but I began to make the attempt. The street was desert and there was no single light the one that I had in the hand to illuminate the wheel. It watched my around and I am scared as much dark, I asked to him my angel of the guard who helped me that she could not happen to me together in so just a short time as much, seems that I am listened to the distant spot descries a light. It approaches me the edge of the highway and shakes my arms, soon I regreted, and if he were some crazy person.
The car nontapeworm intention to stop itself, saw it come to great speed, so better it moves away a little to me and it watches to see its reaction, passage before my with less speed but it did not stop, until which it did a little far but. I, am quiets to the expectation and I saw leave to a woman, I quickly distinguished it in spite of the dark, was Lucy.
Way towards my, while the conductor low, era of supposition that was he, while it shouted to him.
- Lucy, returns here, already is mayorcita, who fixes itself single
- Rob-. Turn to verlo-. - Déjame peacefully, I requested to you that you stopped and point, we must help it
- If you do not return immediately, I will rise the car and you remained distance here
- These threatening to Me? …. you know that I say to you? , that you go away to the Rob excrement, lárgate and olvídame
I saw as Rob mounted in the car and it moved away to great speed, she I arrive at my height.
- Hey Ren, that has happened to you? -. I do not like that they discussed but I like the form in that she was made be worth and who preferred to help me to go away with him
- Amiga, I feel that you have discussed, because you already see here I am that all it leaves to me bad, I puncture a wheel to me and the telephone does not serve and not to change the wheel to me. My face seemed a sadness poem
- They see here. I approach and I take myself by shoulders. - We are going to see as we can solve it. We approached my car. - Good this with the suitable tools is fixed, you have them?
- If friend if, but as I say to you not to become it, nonserious better to call to a crane? , your telephone….
- Rob has taken to it….-. Miro upwards since it was down taking the tools. - That so if done a hand to me and you illuminate to me?
- If, sure you know to change the wheel?
- If. It smiled to me, while it returned to watch the wheel that was about to to change
- Daughter, you are a woman multipurpose eh? , you serve for everything, hopefully you were with me in…
- In where?
- Nothing friend nothing
After twenty minutes that to weighing to be in that situation we ed ***reflx mng ourselves and we joke like long ago, she I finish putting the wheel, moment at which a car I approach to us. It watches it, he was he, damn, it did not want to help me and… so that it returned? , it would break the magic again that was feeling next to her and those so pretty moments.
- Lucy-. It said while it lowered and one approached us. - Affection. .lo I feel, but it is that the work was gotten upset and…
- Rob, no, neither the work nor nothing can cause that you want to leave to distance to a friend or companion, as you want llamarla-. Shut up I listened to his conversation, he sometimes watched to me and not willingly, thing that did not understand so that I had not done anything
- Renee-. One went to my. - I feel It, is that it wanted to arrive at house
- You do not worry Rob, single I…
- Nothing… you do not dare to direct the Rob- word to him. Very annoying Lucy took part. - You are not ashamed
- Lucy please, vamonos, I take you house to your and we spoke I want…
- Then fíjate that no, has cost much work to change the wheel to me like now going to me with you, so it is better than you release yourself
- Lucy I am not going away to go without you, oh already… clear…, you prefer quedarte with her truth?
- The truth if, it is going to give better satisfaction to me than your
- I am not going it to allow. I take hold it of the arm and began to throw of her. - You come with me. I affirm raising the voice, she retirement its arm with force, which caused that it gave codazo me in my mouth since was behind, I felt a great pain and I lost the balance falling to the ground. She I approach my.
- God mine, Ren, these good? , I feel it, I feel it. Ves what you have made me do? -. Him furious shout. - Márchate Rob, I do not want verte but
- But I….
- That you release yourself. Shout
- Sabéis that? , you are crazy, both you are bad, quedaros or you do here what you of the desire. I leave. She I rise
- I feel Renee, you do not know whatever to it I feel it
- You do not worry. I said to him while she elevated my face to watch to me, hurt to me enough, I felt as my mouth were swollen. - Single it was a blow without importance
- Without importance? , it is not what it seems me to my. My blood began to leave. - They see, we go I take to house. - it put its handkerchief to me to stop the blood
She lead and she did not want to deceive me my same one so that if hurt to me, watched it and she watched to me, tapeworm her sad and worried glance, felt like culprit, but nontapeworm so that. I thought that that moment although she was in that situation I liked, although it hurt the tapeworm to me. If, there were doubt, now no wise what felt by my friend, it had enamored to me with her without remedying it. We arrived at my house and we entered her.
- Thanks for all Lucy-. It said to him hanging the keys in its place. - Quieres that it calls you to a taxi or…?
- Go, I thought that by less you would invite to me to take something… in addition I am not going away to march until that wound cures to you
- Sure if, that you wish to take? , it pardons, I thought that you wanted irte no longer I want to you to cause but problems
- You have not caused me Ren problem. That so something to drink I am thirsty. I am going to look for the medicine kit now I return. She knew my house, it was not the first time that visited it and wise person where to find each thing. Lucy return when I deposited two drinks in the table of the hall
- Good, we are going to see that beautiful face, that in spite of being bleeding she is precious. It said to me while it smiled to me and one in front of seated my in another chair. I take myself from the chin and began to clean the blood with alcohol, its game of words liked before, now to me put nervous
- I do not believe that this very pretty one, I will have to make many filigrees so that does not notice I for the work
- It does not concern what you create , I to me you I consider pretty and you do not worry I believe that for Monday this will have gone to you and if is not thus, tomato free days, safe Katy accompanied to you. So that it named it? , if, when this companion I arrive and so that we worked in many together scenes because we became friends but in my mind not it towards, she if?
- Katy? ….mmmm… I do not understand friend, so that you say that to me?
- Good I have seen that lately you are long time together. Picarona smiled to me
- Single the necessary thing, but if, I believe that she is a good person and friend and…
- You see it… I believe that there is something but, I believe that…
- By God Lucy… but of which demons you speak? -. I get infuriated myself, that it was giving me to understand that it was… and so that to deny it if it were it, but it would not confirm him to her anything. I finish curing the wound and I move away a little my while we as opposed to followed one the other, the table separated to us.
- Ren… affection… you do not deny it, I believe that I have the sufficient confidence with you so that me you count it
- Contarte that? -. Me salio a nervous smile
- I believe that….good… that you are gay, you are it? -. Nervous it raises to me of the chair to walk by the hall, approaches me the door that it gave to my garden. - Renee Tell me, you are it?
- Nooooooo-. It answers to him nervous, without watching it, was ashamed, so that it asked that to me? As much noticed to me?
- Amiga, you do not worry… about my is no problem if you are it, I…
- I am not it. I occurred the furious return. - So that you think that I am it? -. if she also asked I to me I would do the same
- I have seen since you have watched Katy, and see that your glance is illuminated when these near her. I go stupid answer gave me, dying me by her and thought that watched others, serious possible that it did not realize as watched her but that if it fixed to me to others? , thing that was not thus, since at no companion it had watched it as it insinuated to me
- These mistaken Lucy, I have not watched at anybody of any way
- Then to my it seems to me that if. So that it insisted to me? , it tires to me
- And if thus outside that? , that it is not the case, but it had done it that concerns you to you? -. I defied wanted to see it its face. - Your these with slimy of your head and I do not say anything to you, some time I have protested to you or I have commented you something? , no, because then déjame already with as much idiot question
- Renee, you do not get upset, I did not think that you that thought Rob pe…
- Lucy please, we leave this conversation. I went to the kitchen, wanted to calm to me felt to me jealous, furious and above so direct it asking, the truth bothered to me. I do not take in appearing in the kitchen, supported in the door
- Renee, I feel I did not want it molestarte with my questions, single wanted that you said the truth to me, I am your friend and I believe that me I deserve it after all this time
- Lucy-. It watches it. - We are speaking stupidities, I believe that it is better than you go to your house. It approaches me to leave the kitchen, she me prevented it putting its body of obstacle
- They are not stupidities friend, does not stop my, I want and I want to know to you that it happens to him to my friend, I do not want that….
- That Lucy? , that? , you will be contented if I say to you that I am gay? , you will feel better if you I confirm it? , as serious the difference. Hazme the Lucy- favor. I requested to him that one separated with my arm. - Déjame to leave, I want to go….
- You are not going to go to any side
- Pero…. that you want of my?
- That you say the truth to me
- That truth? -. It asks to him tired of that situation. She I take myself by the waist and it dragged to me towards her, kissing to me. My legs flaquearon, to feel its lips was a surprise and a satisfaction.
- I feel Renee, I feel it. Retirement and without but occurred the return leaving my house, I I am left that situation before perplex, could not move to me, does not react until past five minutes.
I lay down in my sofa, watching the ceiling thought about all that, that it seemed a dream, that it seemed that had not happened, so that I kiss myself? ….but… nonwise which to think, my head gave to returns and returns and all the weekend therefore passes it, I did not leave house, single it thought and it walked and it did not reach any conclusion. Sunday at night Katy I am called, had problems with its car and it requested to me please that it took it to the work , asentí and we were in a cafeteria to have breakfast and to go us together to the recording Seth.
We were talking while the Serbian waiter us the breakfast that having one hour of time we requested something but that coffee. We laughed, it enchanted this woman to me, he was sweet and it told me like was so happy with its present relation, because previous much damage had done him. To weighing of which it covers the blow to me, thing that Lucy I am mistaken even tapeworm then a mulberry one, Katy realized and I ask myself for the happened thing. Inventing an excuse to me, already we went way to the work. We arrived, felt nerves, we had to roll together and it did not want to make it, nor wise like reactionary Lucy. After maquillaje we saw it that it already was ready to record while Katy and I even had to go to clothes. Katy I finish before and I even dressing to me, saw that somebody opened the door.
- Manu, I feel it you must bring yellow thread to me so that I will not be able….
- Manu returns in minutes. Lucy said to me while she saw it with his suit of Xena that fascinated to see it to me with, hill the door with the key. - We must speak. I am scared the closing of the latch and doubts
- Lucy….mmmm… I….he listens….not….that….I mean ….that…
- You will not be scared to me truth friend? -. I approach my, I cover my legs that were in the open with a mantle which I saw thrown in the armchair
- For nothing. I smiled to him timidly. - It is that I believe that this is not moment to speak
- So that no? , but for her if you have all along of the world eh?
- For that?
- You are wanted to be left with me Renee? , or really you think that I am idiot?
- Neither a thing nor another Lucy, but you explain yourself better
- I have seen you
- You have seen Me?
- If, with Katy, this morning, in the cafeteria, while it touched the face to you, while….
- Either… Lucy or… déjalo… is not what these thinking, but of equal way I do not have so that darte explanations… so she opens the door, we must go to work
- Quieres to leave here? Cogela your same one. It put the key by its decollete
- But you have become crazy? … Lucy by God, but that happens to you? , so that you do all this to me?
- Friend does not pass anything to me, if you want to go out cogela, nobody this preventing you to leave. Its body extended its arms offering to me. The latch moved, asked, wanted to enter, she did not move, followed with its extended arms watching to me and I did not understand so that she, my friend, Lucy, behaved of that form
- Lucy, lets do so many bobadas and opens the damn door, is going to suspect, listening does not want them to enter
- It does not matter to me that they suspect, gives me equal what they think. But I am not going to allow that to her if you leave it and to my no
- To leave it? , but of which demons you speak to me? , your these very badly truely friend very badly
- If, by your fault, which your you have made me feel new things, so that to her you leave it and to my no? , perhaps I do not pleasure to you? -. I approach being centimeters of my
- But that I do not leave anybody. It shouts to him, the door was opened and entered two people who fell right on our feet, to try to open the door to pushes.
Sali quickly although it was not dressed and it marches to my dressing room, I closed with key and I began to get dressed. Again Sali after awhile and Sam interposed in my way, said to me that it had to record some scenes. I requested the day to him, he I suppose saw me overwhelmed and me it yielded it. It needed it, was tired of how Lucy was behaving, did not want that type of friendship, but…. so that me towards that? , that it wanted to prove? , perhaps wanted to prove she herself? , I had made him feel new things? , if that were thus… possibly she… no, it could not risk our friendship and say to him what felt, although thought well either wanted that so rare friendship in my life.
All the day walks, takes a walk by many places, finishing where but I liked in the ocean. Walk by the sand with my barefoot feet and watched the sea. To feel the wind in my face tranquilized to me and to breathe deep gave life me. Arrive until rocks, you watched the horizon, I saw to somebody above, I saw extend its arms and to drop itself, watched at great length, did not leave, had to help him. Swim but fast which I behind schedule could and a pair of minutes in arriving, it dives and it looks for and I found the body of an inert woman under the water. Cogi elevates it and we left to the surface, my face was disturbed when I saw that she was she, my Lucy. Swim quickly to the border and I put it in the sand, I began to give massages him in the chest after breaking its white shirt that took, I gave breathing him.
- We go affection, we go. It continued giving breathing him. - You cannot leave me, so that? So that you have done it? , we go my love, wakes up, I want I love you to you, but that to my life, it wakes up. It shouts to him, my weeping salio and became disturbed when she I surround to me with its arms and I turn myself putting itself upon my without letting kiss my mouth
- Wise Repítelo… that you loved to me. It so said to me near me that it felt its glance nailed in mine. Had pretended? , it could not think what it had made me happen, I wanted to rise but she I hold the hands backwards to me maintaining prisoner to me with its body raises
- Damn Lucy… you are your and your madnesses, I go to matarte i myself, déjame to rise
- … It does not give me just as you curse to me, gives me just as you create the worst person to me of the world, but I am not going to let to you save until not me DES the answers that I want. Try to loosen to me, towards the attempt, but it was evident that it was but strong and great who I
- Renee if you continue doing that you are going to hurt but the wrists
- Then suéltame-. It shouts to him infuriated
- No, I am not going it to do until you answer to me what I wish. Let try it, tapeworm reason, it was going to me to hurt but, and no longer it held but, if what wanted it were my confession would occur it
- That you want to know? ….I am tired Lucy, very tired of all this, all this situation that these causing in my and my life, you know that? , all question I answer to you that IF. I want to You? , if, I love you? , if, I wish You? , if, I have jealousy? , if, would give my life by you? , if. It does not hold but and my tears fell of my eyes, was exhausted mentally. - Lucy everything is if, I do not understand so that you treat to me thus, so that you act thus, so that you like to hurt to me?
- I do not want lastimarte Renee, is that… I feel it, so that I have behaved of this form, I am not desired , I feel things you that never I felt friend and when I see you with katy I cannot hold it. And I feel sickly jealousy to think that it has touched and I to you no, of that it already had and I to you no, of…
- Lucy by the love of God, nobody has done me that, nor katy nor nobody, I cannot be had so that either it I have been by you, my soul, heart and body has been belonging to you for a long time
- You do not cry love. I clear tears to me, loved to me, if it felt those jealousy is that it loved to me and corroborates it. - Renee, I love you
- You can loosen to me already, by favor. Suplique smiling to him to him
- No, I like this position. Which change holding to me single with one of its two hands mine and lowering with the other by my waist, caressing, raising to me again my cheek. - You are so precious Renee, so pretty, so beautiful, that not yet I believe that has to you thus. Its hand returned to lower and my heart barked quickly, my excitation began and its lujuriosa glance I urge myself but, it wanted to touch it, wanted to caress it, but she did not allow me
- Déjame Lucy, suéltame, I want….-. Me hill the mouth with a passional kiss, following my neck, devouring it to it
All our love was completed in that beach, time and time again, until the dusk. We marched tired to my house and we continued yet entering us the one the other our love and prohibited passion, that passion that as much as to her and to my devoured our bodies to us not to make it, until all our desires became reality and we exploded obtaining all the mutual love that we occurred. My mornings from it has were different, affectionate, amiable, beautiful and pleased then to my side it was the love of my life.

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